And so life goes on after i shd have known..wif like half the world thinking i have lost it and the other half thinking that i have probably crumbled under stress which probably isnt so far off from the truth... as for today wat can i say my frens...i have managed to hit a record temperature of 38.3 degrees a feat that mind you has not been achieved by me for the last like 2 to 3 years. this is absolutely fantastic my frens coz i actually spent my entire afternoon after church sleeping...which is absolutely wth...i basically forced myself to sweat like mad by coverin myself wif my comforter in a super hot bedroom. firstly it caused me to sweat like mad and resulted in me changing like 4 shirts in 1 afternoon...but in like a few hours i manage to bring my temperature down a couple of degrees which is kind of cool....oh well..looks like i will be goin to sch afterall....provided i dont have a splittin headache again....on a no link sidenote...i have just realised that if i calculate the number of times i fell ill this year it amounts to the total number of times in my entire secondary sch life....damn this is sooo not a good thing....:(
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The theoy of...I shd have known....
I shd have known damn it when i first step into vjc...damn i was in a bloody institute and wat did i do?? i acted like i was at a regular group party....all fun and games...roses and all damn it man..i shd have known....
i shd have known when i met her that she wasnt meant for me....but wat the fuck did i do??? i tried to be all nice and funny and it all ended in such a big mess that i dont even recognise myself....damn man i tried to say i am sorry and i dont even know wat was the sorry about..i tried to correct the fucking mistake but i aint dont know wat the problem was...i tried to act normal and i dont even know if normal was the right thing..u mean i have been abnormal for the past 12 months???? i tried to be friends and god knows if its working....but all in all i shd have BLOODY KNEW!!!!
i shd have known that sticking to the same sport for 7 years is the worst thing any saint person with a right mind whd do....u get stuck in u imaginary comfort zone and you aint goin to shift ur butt no more unless a fuckin typhoon hits ur ass and u get scooted off to lala land....but wat did i do?? God knows wat the shit i have landed myself in..all those freakin trainings and more and blah blah blah....i just received my schedule for this june holidays and i nearly told my teacher " fuck u" God, i have training for 20 out of 30 days during the holidays!!! Doesnt anyone bother that i have A levels this year??? i shd have known damn it!!!
i shd have known that learning dota whd do my already fucked up grades no justice...but wat did i do?? i got suck up in this imginary fantasy world that i myself got seduced and taken in by all its niceties...and all my grades turned from fucked up to fucked down....damn it man....I SHD HAVE BLOODY KNOWN!!!
I shd have bloody known that typing so much vulgarities whd only spoil my already not so good image..but i dont for one care much now anyway...i am damn fucked up and i need to vent out my frustrations of the whole year....for gods sake i am nearly 18 now!!!
Last but not least i shd have known sicne they say once bitten twice shy that rushin a relationship gets u no where....and yet i am havin tots on chasin a gal i have only known for like wat 2 weeks?? wtf!!!
THIS IS FINAL MAN I SWEAR TO MYSELF..NO MORE I SHD HAVE KNOWNS!!!!!!
KNOWLEDGE IS POWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ps:damn it i shd have known...i have gone mad..=p
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